Thursday, March 31, 2011


My ma.cbook got sick.  She needed a new hardrive.  After several painful days without her, I finally call the call from the g.eniousbar that she was all better... and all my shit had been recovered (insert huge sigh of relief here).  But, this kicked me off my router.  I never got around to changing the hexkey to an actual password, and aparently Joel threw away the paper with the code.  I have no interent at home and I'm losing it.  I attempted to reset the router, but our pc disk drive won't open sooo... I'm relying on my phone and work computer until I have the patience to figure out a better solution (or I am just a moron and there is an easy solution?).

So, because of all of that I haven't been able to update yet again.  It's quiet here at work so I figured I would do a bit of catching up...

Last week my E2 was not where they wanted it to be.  I was up'ed to four pacthes and given an estra.ce supp (fun).  After a few days and a couple of monitoring appointments we got the official ok to schedule our FET.

Saturday I began the lovely PIO injections.  I honestly had myself so worked about about them that I broke into tears with the needle in my hand.  Finally I sucked it up and took the plunge (figuratively and literally).  And ya know what?... it wasn't all that bad.  I rubbed the site manually for a few minutes and then sat on a heating pad for a bit as well.  This routine seems to be working for me.  Five days in and I'm doing well.  My ass is certainly sore, but the horror I had made it out to be is pretty comical to me now.

Three of our embabies were thawed on Sunday.  All three survived the thaw but by Monday, one had arrested.  Tuesday we transferred one 6 cell grade 1.5 and one 4 cell grade 1.5.  While she would have liked to see at least 6 cells and ideally 8 on day three, she said that even though they were lagging a bit they looked nearly perfect under the microscope (grade on scale of 1-5 with 1 being the best).

The transfer itself was so super easy.  Dr. G was awesome and talked with us through the whole procedure.  Being able to watch the embies be placed in my uterus was beyond awesome.  (I'll try to post a pic later.)

So, now we wait and pray that at least one of those little ones has decided to stick around for the long haul.  Beta will be on 4/9 which is thankfully a few days earlier than I orginally thought.  I'm back to work today and have a ton of things to do over the coming week which will hopefully help keep me from slowly losing it until next Saturday.

So, today is 2dp3dt = 2 days past 3 day transfer = 5 days past O = 9 days until beta = the countdown has begun...

Monday, March 21, 2011

good omen...

Last Friday, we finally moved our embabies to the new clinic...

Super easy process... Pick up container from old clinic, drive in Friday rush hour traffic to new clinic, drive back thru Friday rush hour traffic to old clinic, return container :)

While the traffic sucked, the weather was beautiful and the sky looked like this...

That's gotta be a good omen right?

As for the cycle itself... a brief update:  When previously on L.upron, I was lucky to be symptom free.  This time around... not so much.  Crazy hot flashes, night sweats, and a super fun headache thrown in for good measure occassionaly made for a not so peachy me.  Thankfully, once the estro.gen patches started, the side effects went away for the most part. 

All of my monitoring appointments have been good so far.  I go for another tomorrow and then I believe my last will be on Saturday. 

FET 3/29 (8 days!!!)
Beta 4/12 (22 days!!!)
Holy shit!!!

Friday's drive brought us a block of during a local radio stations RockMarchMadness... This lyric from "Dream On" made me smile..."Dream on, dream until your dream comes true..."

Thursday, March 3, 2011


Oh right... I have a blog... that I never update... oops...

I am happy to report that the biopsy results came back negative.  The mass is benign.  I will follow up with a six month check-up with my gyno and will return for another MRI in a year ( I will continue with them yearly).

In the wonderful world of my uterus, I am happy to report that with the arrival of AF today I was able to schedule my baseline for Monday morning.  FET will tentatively take place the last week in March.

We had a ton of events to attend in February and now that things have kind of settled, I hope to get back into the swing of things around here.  I'm sure when the crazy sets in as I add new medications and anticipate transfer and beta, I will need a place to release some of my emotions.

While having to delay sucked.  I am in a good place now and am very excited that we are where we are.  While the fear is always there, lurking in the shadows, I am really hopeful for things to come.  Happy news has been announced a lot by those near to us lately, and I can't help but to hope that we'll be sharing our own happy news sometime soon...

"Amazing isn't it, how some see the basket half empty and others see it half full?  Some see life hopeless, some hopeful.  Even when things are less than perfect, if you think of the good, the beautiful, the hopeful, you'll be more than sustained..." Author Unknown