Thursday, September 9, 2010

birthday...

Today is my birthday.  Sadly, I cannot say that it was the happiest of days.

It honestly hasn't been the happiest few weeks...

In the beginning of August we said goodbye to a woman who was a major influence in my childhood.  After a courageous battle with O.varianCancer, Coach Sue passed away.  She was an amazing woman who gave more than she ever expected in return and who touched the lives of countless youths in our town for more than 30 years.

Last Wednesday we laid to rest a dear friend of our family.  Lou was one of my Grandmother's lifelong friends.  While no funeral is ever easy, this day was more about celebrating the long life of a great friend who is finally at rest.

On Friday we learned that Joel's uncle had passed.  After being diagnosed with stage4cancer in May, Uncle J opted to not undergo any treatments and lived out his final days surrounded by family and friends.

On Sunday, we suddenly lost the father of one of my oldest and best friends.  Ed was an amazing man, a devoted husband & father, and a doting grandfather.  That he will be missed, is putting it lightly.

The services for Ed were held today.  It was honestly one of the hardest days of my life.  To see my friend and her family in so much pain and with so few answers was extremely difficult.  We spent the afternoon reminiscing and laughing through all the wonderful memories we have.  But I know that there are many dark days ahead, and I pray that I have the strength to stand by their side and help them through.

In the middle of the day, a cupcake was passed to me, with the message "Just wanted you to know it wasn't forgotten."  My birthday was honestly the last thing on my mind today, but with that simple gesture and all of the love and well wishes I received today I sit here now feeling truly blessed.  I am one very lucky girl to have such amazing friends and family.

"Every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day..." Author Unknown

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

100 posts...

When I started this blog, I had no idea where it would take me.  I certainly had not a clue that 100 posts later I would find myself where I am today.  While my original intentions were simply to have a place to vent, there is no denying that along the way this has become primarily a journal of our battle with infertility.

And I am ok with that.  I am who am am today because of this path and more importantly, who I traveled this path with.  By that I mean not only Joel and our friends and family who are simply the most amazing support system ever, but also each of you who has offered a kind word, or a hug, or a shoulder to lean on on those darkest of days.  Thank you to each of you who stops by to read my ramblings.