Yesterday's beta confirmed that this wasn't our cycle.
Waiting for that call was pure torture. We decided that since we had already tested, I would just take the call whenever it came. It came while I was home for lunch. Mr was on his way home from work, so I just waited for him, I wanted to tell him - not call him. Well, the look on my face when he walked in the door was all it took. He held me while I cried and with the words, "We have each other and that is all we need," I knew that he was right. While my heart does ache and I know I will likely shed more tears over the coming days, we will be ok.
We do have five snowbabies that I am grateful for. But we are not ready to head into a FET just yet. I think we need some time to heal and clear our heads. And, we had agreed before this all started that our cycles would be limited, so in all reality - the FET could be our last shot. That terrifies me.
So, for now we are trying to keep our heads up. We have decided that a vacation is in order so planning that will give me something to focus on.
I came across this quote today and I think it fits nicely..."Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light..."